Moon Monster

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 17:59:36 GMT

Wonder if anyone still even cares.

And... Done.

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 08:14:21 GMT

So... Maybe it's time I updated.

Recently I wish that I still had the number of like half the dealers I used to know. For those of you who know me and know my past... This is not a good thing. I mean, everything should be good and I should be happy. Right? But, even if I have the most wonderful people in the world in my life I still... Want that one "friend". I have been jonesing so bad and it really isn't funny. It makes it even better because I almost work right in the heart of the easiest place in Dallas to get it, and it really is taking everything in me to fight the urge to ask someone where I can get a fix.

Like I said, for those of you who know my past... This is not a good thing. I need a good swift kick in the ass. Figuratively speaking that is. You kick me in the ass I'll break your leg.

I will be turning 19 in less than two months. One of those stupid ages where the thrill of being 18 has worn off but you still have to wait to drink, not that I really would even when I turn 21. I hope 19 goes by fast. 18 wasn't as great as it was supposed to be. Then again, I probably had really high sights set for it, and then everything kinda crumbled around me. I didn't get to finish school... I slacked off when it came to working. I fell into deep deep deep depression and I really haven't gotten myself fully out of it. I had always hoped that the life I thought loved a year ago was actually how things were going to turn out. And part of me is all "I'm glad..." But then the other part is still... A little shattered. That's fair right? I have every reason to feel that way. Anyway, when everything is said and done... I don't really know how to finish that sentence because right now there is no ending.

I know this is long and most people probably wont read it. I mean, who keeps up with online journals anyway. Then again, with like half my friends... It's the only way I actually can keep up with their lives.

The downfall of going to school out of state. You come back and you feel so out of place. It's been... 6 months and I still havent fully come around. I miss everything I used to have where I knew everything that went on in peoples lives. Not that I am nosy, it's just... It made me feel good. Like I was a wonderful friend that people actually came to and told me what was going on. Recently I haven't been feeling like that...

I miss the maturaty I thought I had. It made me feel like the world was at my feet and I could do anything... And now, I feel like just another pawn in the world. Then again, I guess I am right? I have so many things I want to do... And don't get me wrong I'm working toward them... I just found myself, falling into a newfound laziness that I never felt before and I am finding it hard to remove myself.

I wish I really was a better friend.

I wish

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 00:37:44 GMT

I wish the person who I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with would just show up at my door...

It would make everything better.

The most brilliant man...

Tue, 03 May 2005 08:28:05 GMT

And the amazing things that came from his head.

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